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More people have focused on or made more aware of the flu this year. Most people know they have the flu because they feel like they've been hit by a train, they are achy all over and hurt. I caught the flu a few weeks ago, the way I knew was the fever and other symptoms. They achy part of the flu is usually how I feel on a daily basis.
Now that I've been on medication that lessens the effect of fibro on my body and can no longer afford the meds, the pain is worse than before the meds. That may just be because I'm no longer used to the amount of pain, I know what it is like to not hurt so hurting again is horrid. All I know is that I want to cry most of the time. All this pain is doing is making me bitchier than ever, more cynical than ever. I've been horrible to Parker and I know it, not that he's been innocent though, sometimes I feel like he goes out of his way to piss me off and be an asshole.
I hurt like I have a bad case of the flu, only it doesn't go away. I live like this every day....
Now that I've been on medication that lessens the effect of fibro on my body and can no longer afford the meds, the pain is worse than before the meds. That may just be because I'm no longer used to the amount of pain, I know what it is like to not hurt so hurting again is horrid. All I know is that I want to cry most of the time. All this pain is doing is making me bitchier than ever, more cynical than ever. I've been horrible to Parker and I know it, not that he's been innocent though, sometimes I feel like he goes out of his way to piss me off and be an asshole.
I hurt like I have a bad case of the flu, only it doesn't go away. I live like this every day....
