sigh

I've had a fitful night of sleep for the past two nights... I think it's because I'm in major pain... I've had horrid dreams.. things like my kids dying... I hate nights like these...

It seems that Parker and I just can't sleep in the same room comfortably... he has zero body fat and gets cold easy. He doesn't like fans so in the summer it's too fucking hot to sleep. Well, it's too fucking hot to sleep in the winter too because the heater is on and the door is closed and we have a heavy blanket and an electric blanket that I can't seem to adjust to be comfortable for me because no matter what I set my side to, I'm still getting whatever he has his side on. I hate that... but he would get sick if he gets too cold so I don't know how to fix this... *sigh*

Now I've had little sleep and I've got to take the kids to the doctor and I really just want to crawl back in bed because even sitting up in my chair right now is fucking killing me... I want to cry it hurts so bad... I wish this constant fucking pain would go away!