I hate my body!

[wolfrose]

I HURT! Every part of my body hurts right now but I'm also having these traveling spasms of intense pain that just incapacitate me. Brain fog is horrible, just writing this is challenging and I'm really nauseous, not able to eat much, even watermelon is making me ill.

THIS SUX!

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[jazdewills.livejournal.com]

((((( HUGS ))))) Wish there was something I could do to help!!!!

[minteckers.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I have lupus, I know how that goes.

Time to go hit the reefer ;-) Don't they say that helps cancer patients with nausea? I'll never know, if I smoked I'd die of acute lung explosion.

[gwenwolfrose.livejournal.com]

Actually I am a firm believer in medical marijuana. At one time the doctor had me on a massive amount of prescription drugs that left me catatonic daily. These included Soma, Loratab, and Neurontin. I was a zombie. I wasn't feeling any pain but I wasn't living either so I elected to not take those medications anymore and bought my first bag of reefer at the age of 33. Not that I hadn't smoked it before but it was the first time I ever bought any for myself. It takes care of my pain, allows me to be able to eat without nausea, and I can still function unlike what I was like on the prescription drugs. Sucks to be me that I don't live in a medical marijuana state and I don't know anyone who sells the stuff up here. No reefer relief for me. :(

[minteckers.livejournal.com]

I'll have to try it sometime for my lupus pain. I can't even burn an entire stick of incense without coughing, so I'd have to make some cookies or something. I am in a medical marijuana state and I have a chronic condition and no addiction histories. Unfortunately though I've seen first hand how it is abused as a 'medicine'. (My junkie cousin just got busted for growing 'medical marijuana' which she does have a prescription for. On tv she whines and complains that it's for her pain, but we (the family) know they just sell it so they can buy heroin. Basically she lived in federally subsidized welfare housing which states you can't have marijuana. Federal law supersedes state law, so even though she has a prescription they can't grow it in their apartment and have been busted once before this last time. They conveniently left that part out when they called the tv new stations with their sob story.

[gwenwolfrose.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I've seen the abuse too. It's sad and infuriating.

[minteckers.livejournal.com]

I don't have an inherent problem with marijuana even being legal (although I can honestly say I know more people addicted to pot than I know alcoholics), but as long as it is illegal, I do have a problem with junkies living for free off of the government and selling it to buy the heroin their government check doesn't afford them.

Nothing makes me angrier than my cousin calling trying to get some xanax off of me as I pull my stiff legs out of bed, anoint my painful joints with hands that can't close all the way, followed by cleaning the painful rash blanketing my body, and hauling myself in to work.

At least I can always tell myself "at least I'm not her."

[gwenwolfrose.livejournal.com]

I hear ya. You know what gets under my skin along this same line is welfare mothers whose children have prescriptions for Ritalin or Adderall and they don't give the kids the pills but either take them themselves because they're speed junkies or they sell (or trade) them to buy meth.

Of course then I have a whole nother rant on the over use of diagnosing children with ADD. I've seen problem ADD children who really do need to be on the medication and I've seen kids who might be a bit on the hyper side that are just given drugs so mom doesn't have to deal with them. And people wonder why there is a huge meth problem now days... of course there is. These kids have been getting legal speed for their whole childhood and are addicted. Meth is easier to get and more potent.

[minteckers.livejournal.com]

My parents had a solution to my ADD. It was called running track and field, coupled with a wooden spoon. Their solution to my dyslexia and poor handwriting was to have me copy entire books 100% accurately onto paper. If I screwed up I 1) had to do the entire chapter over again, and 2) if my handwriting wasn't legible (keep in mind the issue here was legible, not 'perfect') I had to do the entire chapter over again.

So between running my ass off and burning all that extra hyperactivity, being forced to focus (on the books for copying) and being sharply disciplined when I didn't, all of those problems went away.

Go figure eh? I surely have my fair share of problems, but ADD, dyslexia, and poor grades haven't been one of them since the summer of 4th grade when my parents started making me do all that stuff rather than medicating me.

I hear you on the junkies. I have no problem reporting people for fraud. Generally kids are terrible liars and if asked by someone being nice to them if they take any pills and how they feel when they take them etc etc it would come to light they aren't on the medication (assuming it's not the sort of thing that could easily be shown on bloodwork).

[lucifera-shadow.livejournal.com]

Oh man, I'm so sorry you're going through this, especially when you're not in a medical marijuana state. :(